my side, your side, one side

“You’re totally overworking your side of the relationship.”

Thank you to my good friend for saying that for me. It’s so true, though. You know? There’s no point in simply waiting for things to happen to you, specifically, waiting for bad things to happen to you. It leaves everybody hurt and wounded, and leaves scars that will never disappear, no matter how much you pick at them.

It’s amazing what time will do for you. It will make you hurt, it will cause you pain, but above all, it will mend. No matter what, time will always affect you, and the worst part about it is that it is mankind’s creation. Mankind is responsible for your suffering, although it is also responsible for the healing. I guess there will always be two sides to every story, but the only stories that I can seem to remember at the stories that teach. Those moments in time that tell you what is right and what is wrong; what works and what doesn’t work; what should and should not be done, those moments in time are the only ones that matter. So all you need to ask yourself is if this moment in time will matter. The sad answer is always, “I don’t know,” and that will get us nowhere. Well, I guess that asking this question just doesn’t help at all.

So I guess my only question is…do I wait for pain to strike me, or do I strike pain into the hearts of others? Neither seems like a good option, though one of them must be chosen, and at any point in time, the side that I choose can change. Right now I’m waiting. But how much longer should I wait?

That all depends on how special the thing that I’m waiting for is. Or well, in this case, person. And that person is very special. Depressing? Yes. Special things shouldn’t come back to hurt you. Special people don’t hurt you at all. Special people only tell you the truth and it won’t hurt even though it should because you know that that special person only has your best interest in mind.

Special people should all be spontaneous.